Resolutions

This year has been... Challengingly remarkable. I learned to move on and to let go of my past. I've become more healthy and independent since. The song I've listened and helped me the most in all my comings was "Get It Together"- By: India. Arie. If you've ever been in through shortcomings, or have to dealt with forgiving someone, this song I would definitely recommend. She has a very smooth and powerful voice. Very chill.

Some accomplishments have included getting a job (lol) and keeping it. This has kept me responsible. And... I like to make money.

I graduated high school, with my class. And I had a great time. [The guys I sat by were the ones to blow up the beach ball. They were very entertaining to talk to by the way. Sad we had never talked before, even though I thought them to be very immature and stupid... It's nice to talk to people you don't usually talk to ;D] They made me realize that it wasn't that important the way that people made it seem. All my four years of hard work came to me in the form of that piece of paper. And what does it mean? That I succeeded high school. I'm proud of that in and of itself.

I'm attending college, my parents dream come true. And I'm loving it. :) I'm taking classes that I absolutely love and I'm finding out who I am.

Resolutions:
1. To be nicer and more social with people. Lol.
2. To know me.
and
3. To read all religious texts by the end of the year. :)

Simple right? We will see.

Thanks for reading. Have a Happy New Year and Be Well.

Bye-Bye 2009. It's been fun.

-Louise

Guy Tips

When it comes to dating guys, I am a very, very meticulous person. I go off of my intuition the very first time I see them. If something doesn't feel right, I won't waste my time. (And no. I don't go off first "looks." I go off of the feeling I get from them. I've just... Always done this.) I also have self respect and don't appreciate when a guy thinks he can treat me a certain way. Obviously, it is different with every girl, but with this girl, you are going to have to take it slow. To know what kind of girl I am, because I know there are similar ones like me, I will give you a little summary:

I don't like stupid people and I enjoy intelligent conversations. Education is very important to me and I take very seriously. Family is also very important to me. I am not outgoing and don't try to draw extra attention to myself, but I have confidence in who I am. I have self respect and want to be treated with chivalry = I want to be treated like a lady. The treatment of a lady, in my book, is not the worth of your job: It's your dignity and how you treat mine: with kindness and respect.

Now, I can see where guys would forget how to act: young women nowadays do not respect themselves or their bodies. But, this doesn't mean that you guys should take advantage of it. In fact, I find it more attractive when a guy can respect himself by respecting women, even if they are a little "loose."

Also, the lovely technology we have nowadays turns nothing into "something" almost instantaneously. We have lost conversation and how to be in touch with our social skills. Maybe girls are just bored. Maybe that's why we see so many who don't care with what we see. And, it's very easy to do, frightening though it is. And maybe I sound like a hypocrite since I keep this online blogsite, but hey, it keeps me sane. To vent and let my thoughts explore the world in my own little corner of the world wide web. But, first and foremost, I do not and will not allow myself to ever disrespect myself.

I can't give up and say chivalry has died.There are too many people in this world and I would just sound pathetic. And I most definitely won't give up on my own sisters. We all need to remember how to treat ourselves before we expect someone else to treat us the same. You have to teach someone how to treat you. Case closed.

-Louise

The Battle of the Homosapiens and the Ginormous Blue People

Picture of tree in my backyard. Taken by: Elgin Saafi.

Just saw Avatar, loved it, and it also made me very tired. It also made me ponder some issues we as a nation, as a people, as the world. We seem to not like to see because that's easier in the short term scheme of things: to deny what's in front of us and what really is. Avatar brang up some good points: we are destroying our Earth and we take from what is not ours. Now, my father, would kindly tell me to stop being such a tree-hugger and really see how things are. But, my dear father, I truly believe that we all are disconnected. Disconnected, meaning from nature, from our roots, and from our beautiful mother Earth.

When the clans were gathering to fight for what they believed in, I got goose bumps all over. It lasted for a good 3 minutes. But, they fought for something that was theirs. They preserved and in which they were connected to, literally. The flow of energy The People had in the movie was inspirational, and I became envious, of fictional characters on a movie screen.

And you know, they are right. They connected to something more than themselves and they believed in it with all their hearts. They showed no fear because they knew Eywa would always protect them and provide. They were strong. They lived by helping each other and living off of what was provided for them. "All energy is borrowed, and one day you will have to give that back."

-Louise

Something Cheery.

Felt compelled to write something more "cheery" since my last blog was intensely... intense. Anyways, my sister had received a free cup from McDonald's the other night. Her reaction is hilarious.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOW6flebcno

-Louise

What Am I Doing With My Life?

You know, I'm 19 and feel that my life is not what I was expecting it to be. It's not that it's in a bad place, it's very "eh." My definition of "eh" is average. Average is fine, but I don't consider myself an average person. I can remember a time when I was younger when I dreamed of these days: being independent, being free, partying with my friends, traveling, meeting new and interesting people; the normal dreams of the future we all think of. Well, tonight, I looked at my life for what is was and I saw things that did not impress me: still depending on my mother for guidance, still tied to suck-ish job that pays better than most, but I could always use a little more, and in-which I'm sure everyone could.

Right now, I am sitting in my little room and in the background as I type these words is that damn Miley Cyrus and her hit, "The Climb." My sister's radio is faint, but by now I know every single word to that damn song. And as I type these words, and listen to the faint, nasally sounding Miley, I think of her lyrics: there will always be obstacles in life. But. What happens when you don't have any obstacles? What if instead of a jungle, you are in a desert, with rolling hills of sand everywhere and you can't see anything for miles? My life is not a struggle in which I am grateful for, but there is no zest, no passion. What Am I Doing With My Life? It always seems that as soon as life gets exciting, I go through these desert periods.

It's interesting. I have been through this before and I don't expect life to be some roller coaster, but it scares me when it stands still. Or maybe... Maybe, it's not standing still: I am...

You know. I have learned that when something happens in your life, it's not a coincidence. And if it's something you don't like, there is reason why it shows up. Maybe I am standing still because... Because maybe I don't want to get hurt again. Standing still is safe, it's comfortable; even though I hate it, I'm doing it. Isn't that funny? We always do what we say we never will do. "Never say never,"Rob (stepdad) would say. Perhaps I need to stand still. Yeah.

I'll do that. For now at least.

-Louise